About me

Why am I so special?

I'm not.

I'm pretty average, 33 year old woman who works in I.T, lives in Berkshire in South East England and enjoys gardening, photography, antique collecting, cooking and also... food.

I've also struggled with my weight since I was 16 and have been a size 12 and a size 22. I've been on a number of diets including Slimfast - where I lost 4 stone, the GI Diet, where I lost 6 stone... and all kinds of crazy / weird / faddy diets. The one thing they all had in common was, if I stuck to them, I lost weight - if I went back to my 'normal' eating habits, I'd put the weight back on.

I'm also an emotional eater - I eat when I'm stressed and when I do binge-eat, I feel ashamed that I've been 'bad', and then I eat more as I feel bad.. and the cycle continues. I stop exercising, start shoving more food in my mouth and ignore the scales and the fact my clothes start to feel tighter.

I really, really, really don't want to continue doing this my entire life. I'd love to
be able to wear size 14 clothes comfortably, to be able to wear more than 50% of my wardrobe as currently loads of things are too tight for me or show too many lumps and bumps.

I started this blog to document my journey - I've never really been vocal about how I feel about my size and my friends and family are too polite to comment when they see me and see I've put on weight. I'm currently a 16/18 and don't want to slip further into bad habits.

Apparently if you lose weight in a group, you're more successful - However the weight loss groups scare me to be perfectly honest. So, I'm trying this approach - I invite anyone from anywhere who is also struggling with their weight to join me - I'm not posting glossy photos, I'm not lying about what I'm eating or how much I weigh (I'm taking photos of the scales each month!) and when I'm feeling happier with how I look, I'll start posting photos of what I look like.

So yeah, that's me in a nutshell. I started this blog at the beginning of May 2015 and I'd like to look back at Christmas and see how far I've come - then Christmas 2016, 2017... and beyond. 

I want to make life changes. I don't want to diet any more.

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